I would never wish the suffering I went through on my worst enemy.
It had been two years. I was completely helpless and no one could understand my situation. Those who were close to me did not want to deal with me anymore, and I was too embarrassed to mention it to anyone else.
I went to the doctor, who sympathized. But when he told me the options I had, I just did not find any of them adequate. I read too many stories of recurring pain and problems, and I did not want to put myself in a situation where I had to wear a diaper the rest of my life.
I looked up solutions online and found countless pills, balms, tinctures and ointments. I tried many of them. Utterly useless. Meanwhile, the pain was getting worse and my life was falling apart.